We have Covid

 Fuck, yes.
This shit has been kept away from me for so long that I almost believed I am immune to it. I'm not.
On Monday, I started feeling very bad in a general way. All of a sudden, my sense of taste vanished. Despite it returning a few minutes later, it was already a warning sign and a hint of what it could be. After a terrible night, I went to the doctor on Tuesday morning. 

The times when  Doctors came to visitpatients in their houses is something I miss. I had a fever of 40 degrees and had to drive 15 kilometers to the doctor. My mother went with me because she was concerned that I might cause an accident in this condition.

The doctor confirmed that it may be Covid, but there is currently no treatment other than staying at home and taking paracetamol. And I should wear a mask even in the house to protect my mom. Hell, if its covid I already HAVE spread it around to her.

I asked if we could make a covid test, both my mom and me.

After leaving, I had to go to the drugstore and feed the donkey. When I was finally under my blankets again, I had fucking 41 degrees of fever.

In the past, patients wouldn't have been forced to take such trips while they were very sick. The Covid Test results came on Wednesday by Email and My mom's test was surprising: Both negative for Covid and Influenza. So I thought that mine would be good too, but  err: I am Covid Positive.

Either my mom has a false negative (that can happen) or the test was taken just a little bit too early after infection. Because she has it too. She showed the first sympoms yesterday and is now fully ill today.

I drown in guilt. I regret not getting us vaccinated during the opening of this season's vaccination campaign on October 2.  We both have been vaccinated three times, but this year I had so many appointments and things to do that I just couldn't manage it in time. Now we pay dearly for that. 

Useless for me to wine that I have no help whatsoever in what is nothing less than the management of 2 lives, keeping the house and looking for the pets and if enough time is left, to work on my projects. 

Because now it's even worse,  We are both ill as hell still with no help and I am knocked out.