Another step forward

Today, the clinic gave me all the documents and a prescription for a blood analysis. Along with that, the questionary about my health, weight and height, all that stuff they usually ask. I have a vision meeting scheduled with the anesthesia doctor as well.

They even booked at the hotel for me to stay the night before my admission. I will travel to Amiens on March 25th and enter the hospital at 26th to undergo surgery the same morning.

So things finally got real. After all this time it feels - unreal. Although I am looking forward to it, I also have the usual fears that everyone experiences when having surgery.

I visualize how I will be on my way home on march 29, with my flat chest, free and happy. With a spring and summer ahead of me full of liberty and light.

Liberation Day

Today, the clinic in Amiens called me to let me know that they have finally  a spot for my Mastec. I have been on the waiting list for more than a year now.  At times, I didn't believe anymore that the whole thing would become real. 

All of a sudden the whole world looks different. I had a massive motivation boost. And in the same time I am fearful. What if it is just an illusion? I have waited for that literally since over 45 years now. In silent suffering.

Could it really be true that March 27 will mark the end of that era and the start of a new life?